I will not fall, I shall prevail

You want to drag me in your misery 

you want to drink your agony.

Sharp words I can hear

disastrous deeds is what I can see.

I get a familiar gift for you

to understand the meaning of pain.

I don´t let you to drag me again

in the hell that you are create.

Once understood I am no a guide 

will direct you to the other side.

You´ll have the comfort of my absence 

because all my words are keeping in silence.

Now!!!!

Can you feel me in the distance?

Can you hear me in the silence?

Do you want me to say some words of encouragement?

Do you want to be a helping hand to live your life?

I  hope that you scream: YES!!!!

But, I whisper this time… NO

Deeply

Life is gone… right now

time has come… for us

Like a wave crashes on the rocks

everything went away for us.

Empty words We said 

but, nothing has change.

Emptiness floating around us

we try but… that´s no the way for us.

Feel free to seek other horizons 

to challenge other kind of reasons.

never surrender if the world breaks you down

just remind what we were born.

Just believe and breath to fight and other day

remember if you fail this is not the end

It´s an other chance to rise and break.

just believe and breath to live your dreams

Something broke about us

When distance hurts 

and the love is not enough.

our ambitions are grow up

the love goes.

Perhaps I am not so close 

maybe your are not in love.

the excuses never fail

our home is like a jail.

Why your words are so cold?

Something broke about us,

something that will never return 

just I want to run and go on…

All is change it away

when the silence encrypted all.

No expresion...

just deception…

All turns so black

My strength has gone 

and there is no hope.

Something inside has die 

I don´t want to fight.

I must sleep

I want to dream,

the dream of death 

in the last from my path.

Now I am so sick to live 

Just I behold the end

I am waiting to die 

I can not wright fine…

My mind fades in black

there is no turning back.

It´s the point of no return 

the count down has began…

I am stupid

It´s stupid think to this way

when the days runs away.

We don´t found the reasons to stay

and I gonna miss you from my side.

I don´t want to live a lie…

please understand about it.

You can not blame me

if you not feel the same.

I am crying, I am dying

But I will survive 

I gonna be alright.

Don´t worry about it.

Here is not dreams to live 

just tears to cry… you see,

When We can´t turn around,

then, I can´t make you love me again.

So fast I hope to forget

I gonna be alright 

don´t worry about it 

don´t worry about me.

No hope for the weak

Just it´s chaos and confusion 

Now I don´t get to run

your sadness devouring all

The misery is getting close.

All these shit that you said

All the things that you did

everything was a fucking lie 

and I let it die again I don´t care.

I let you down to the abyss 

´cuz I am not tolerate you sadness 

Should I have any regrets?

Can you push this time reset?

I don´t need sympathy

When I carry on this insanity

as darker than you are 

and now you can scream for…

Come

f you could listen my words 

you can conceive new worlds.

Walk with me through the path of sorrow

rebuild with me a new dawn… 

Everything is change

no one can stay.

All beings live and die 

every single day.

All has gone...

I am not belong to this time

I feel you even the distance

but I am not the only one 

I know that you restart once more.

i am not still here...

I will not be there,

no reson, no hope 

that doesn't  make sense.

Please don´t ask me why I go,

all is said and all done.

After that there will only silence 

there will my last answer in the distance.

I leave remains of hope

lessons on how to survive the love

remember your are not alone,

not after al, because I am not the only one.

Tears in the rain.

In a sea of confusion I drive 

when every hope has die.

Every one has gone insane 

and all has fade like tears in the rain.

The spring has gone 

and the damage is done.

Entire suffering was complete 

and the memories deleted.

The winter cut our skin

like a sharp knife 

in the endless night 

surrender by cold wind.

The snow dancing in the air

like a promises full of lies 

withering everything in its path

and everything has die.

Like a tears in the rain

we enjoy our pain

for this misery 

to drown in agony.

tracing the scars of memories

It´s not simple to describe 

If you can not see 

all the pain inside...

fatal infection and disease.

It´s not easy to walk the way

when all your friends are dead 

and their flesh bleeds on your hands

trying to whisper their names.

I need to rewrite their lines

among the friendly fire 

I can not save their lives 

dying one by one.

No sympathy, no regret 

on the battle field.

Just I can hear the cannon roar 

you can not turn off on the road.

Living memories drawn on scars, 

now my wounds on my arms 

could be describe 

all the pain inside .

Watch with your own eyes

It´s simple to describe

like spit a simple lie…

you are not the same anymore.

I will be there

When you feel alone

don´t worry any more

I get close 

I will come…

Don´t be afraid to the shades 

Because I will be there

Closer than your breath 

face to face to the end.

My place is your home,

here, you will be save.

Far away from the world

just trust in my word

And recall my facts 

my words are my acts 

I never lie 

Just come close...

Time runs

It´s turn so dark

It seems too black

I saw the fear grouws up

until you´ll crash to the rocks.

The time fades away

The finial decision is here 

and nothing has change 

your facts are stray.

Forget all the doubts

remember why you are strong.

Stay brave, don´t be afraid 

it´s the only way to be save.

All you need...

I will find my way

in other path, in other life.

It´s not the end 

just I fell again.

Appealing to strange feelings,

So I know… It´s a bad joking,

but I know, I get the strength

to rise from the pain.

Entire my hope was a dream

from which I wake up.

Life takes many turns to steam

perhaps this is a break up.

Meanwhile no memories remains 

and I will remain below 

dying day by day so slow 

remains me all those dreams.

The sad God

In my words there are no life,

not after all.

Behind these lines 

I can reach the life beyond the time.

I could be immortal

rising among the dead

as an almighty God

to loving like a mortal.

Beholding the northern lights 

in solitude, far away to the world 

But, too close to the shining starts 

I am still writhing this strange words.

These empty words but sordid in meaning…

For some one mean... evil

to other ones is sad

for all the entire society it´s empty.

A violent dreams

So you can tell me something now

I open my heart, I'´m bleeding without control

so Tell me something, I want to hear 

or wright some one lines to I can read.

You are by my side 

But I´m alone .

Can you explain all these pain?

Because your love it´s like a curse.

All this silence inside my head

and I screaming too loud 

but you won't to hear 

when the hope fades away.

The darkness embrace me 

like a dream That I must to sleep 

But I resist to die until to know….

To know, what do you feel?

You can leave me 

in this endless dream

But, you can´t leave me 

with all these doubts. 

Bye, bye my darling

It´s time to say goodbye

It´s a beautiful day to die 

Within to the time…

Time to say…

It´s to late for us

Too late to talk about love

Is your love enough strong?

Our love could change it all?

I have not the strength to keep fighting,

I can not struggle against the world on my own.

Entirely tired to missing…

missing something to never come.

It´s time to say goodbye

It´s time to learn about it,

if you talk everything…

I must to learn to live without you.

Love in madness 8

I have conquered the world and I did burn to the ground, but without you... this means nothing.

Love in madness 7

Quien dice que la luz es salvación, si desde que te elegí sabia que serias mi perdición. 

Despertar

Encuentro insoportable las palabras que antes me inspiraban

las encuentro como sonidos monstruosos que ahora me perturban

en medio de este silencioso bullicio tan apabullante

donde todo es tan confuso como un extraño presente.

Y en los momentos de desesperación y profunda tristeza

es cuando emerge de lo profundo esa indomable bestia 

despertada por las notas que Bethoveen inspiraba

en un grito desesperado de rebeldia divina.

Es sentir todas esas palabras agolpadas adentro

en lo mas profundo de este abismo.

Es el rugir de la bestia insaciable que fragua su furioso escape 

azotando con fuerza mi corazón en cada latido antes de que todo acabe.

Después de despertar no habrá veneno que me pueda matar,

ni droga que ante mi no se ha de doblegar.

Ahora las palabras fluirán como el fuego mismo

y toda esta furia será liberada desde el infierno.

Scarlet woman

At the end of her motherhood 

She tries to father a child 

but her flesh tuns so dark,

black tumors growing inside .

She prays to  heaven 

but God can´t hear her voice.

Drowned in faith by a man

who has gone mad.

But.., insanity comes in many forms,

She prays fo a son

so a dark father hears her pleas

far away from the grace.

Seduced with lies she ceded her womb

fucked by the father of lies 

She will bring the world a child

they will eventually destroy her world.

A winter moon a go 

the child come to the world

covered by darkness and blood

below a damn solstice.

the child craves for blood 

his mother die so slow

both are chained for all eternity 

child was born under the seal of fatality.

The world will be yours in time 

begetter of destruction

because you are the end of the line

son of perdition.

Love in madness 6

Sentir el dolor de tu amor en mi carne es lo que necesito para que no te quede duda alguna que por ti me muero… 

Sordido

Ahorita hay tanto ruido en mi cabeza

que no puedo escuchar la música

que viene desde lo mas profundo 

de mi erosionado y triste mundo.

Solo puedo escribir algunas palabras,

o tal debiera decir que solo son locuras

tiradas al azar pero estructuradas 

para que parezcan palabras cuerdas.

Hay tanto ruido que ya no escucho

aquellas melodias que venian del abismo,

de aquel lugar obscuro y húmedo,

algo similar al olvído. 

No puedo escuchar siquiera los latidos de mi corazón,

pero, aun puedo escuchar el sollozo de mi razón

que yace en algún lugar perdido de mi mente

esperando a que la muerte llegue finalmente.

Love in madness 5

Me interesa tu amistad con tu amor. Pero, tu amistad sin tu amor me importa una chingada...

Pretextos...

Mis voces que nunca fueron escuchadas,

los besos que jamas tus labios tocaron

y por que no las caricias que nunca te acariciaron 

aunque, otras mujeres las agradecieron.

Revolcandonos en momentos, 

fingiendo olvidos tontos 

y acostandonos con otros  

es como nos extrañamos.

Conservamos el deseo masoquistamente

en un puñado de pretextos 

que no hacen sino recordarme tu sexo

en un arranque de locura constante.

Aunque aveces pienso

que todo esto es un desastre

causado solo por lo que siento

aunque sospecho que todo esto tu lo armaste.

Love in madness 4

Te amo tanto, pero tanto que soy feliz sin ti...

Some one

Countdown begins…

the beginning of the end,

begin right now

close to madness.

I lose something

I kill someone 

after I smiling

reminding me some one.

I try to escape

running away

far away

form these hell.

People say:

I´m insane.

but, just I…

I fall in love.

Love in madness 3

No es la primera vez que mi cordura colapsa, pero si es la primera vez que huyo desesperadamente de la locura...

All you need...

Rise again

beyond the light 

speaking unknown language 

draining the pain.

Born, rise and die

every single day

drawing a simple line

deep inside your mind.

Strange touch of madness

from the mental illness 

to plotted weird dreams, 

absorbed me into a dark streams.

Love in madness 2

Puedes seguir considerandome una amenaza... todos los hacen.

40 minutos

Debo dejar de correr,

de huir de ti

de escapar otra vez

y enfrentarme a ti.

Me frustro por que no puedo tenerte 

Me inspiro escribiendo por que quiero verte 

pero no puedo verte ni tenerte 

así que solo me queda escribirte.

Puedo decir que mi bendición es amarte,

mi perdición es desearte

y mi maldición es extrañarte,

pero, por eso me gusta describirte.

Describir la desesperación que siento,

como lentamente me robas el aliento,

hasta que mis manos sangran de tanto escribir

y mi corazón se cansa de latir.

Love in madness 1

I don´t care... I made a choice knowing that I will suffer like anyone...

Without you

I don´t know about you now,

but, could you ask for me before?

Too many times I seek you there

other time just I stay there.

the solitude turns so high 

and the storm is so close...

leaving  everything to drift and die.

Then, do you say everything?

I changing all my seasons 

saving your life too many time,

thinking that everything would be fine,

but in reality only was the en of the line.

I must learn to live without you…

finding new ways 

meeting new people.

thus, and only then I can go on without you.

Indoctrination to the end of times

Here comes again

on the way of pain

to run for your life,

regret for your lies.

Collected humans souls 

there is no place to hide 

inside these fucking hole

just We are waiting to die.

The time has come

to know all about us.

For first time our errors 

become an ancient terrors.

The universe show us

his true face.

It reducing us to dust

in the empty space.

Voces ausentes

Por que la boca de otros

es mi grito ahogado 

en el limbo del olvido,

el hogar de los caídos.

Una singular forma de burlar a los fármacos 

antes de caer en un sueño lleno de surcos,

de una soledad infestada por una tristeza de manicomio

que envenena este extraño y "equilibrado" nosocomio.

Atén, neutralicen, mediquen, reduzcan me a nada.

Por que la bestia que more en mi pecho solo puede ser atada,

jamas será exterminada por algún hombre o razón

ya que se alimenta de tristeza y desesperación.

Autodestrucción

Es tiempo de diseccionar mi alma,

de borrar esta letargica calma

que me ahoga en las aguas del letéo

donde poco a poco desaparece mi deseo.

Removiendo mis entrañas,

antiguas memorias, extrañas

cesaciones desbocan mi corazón

asesinando mi ultimo rastro de razón.

Esa antiquísima evocación a la autodestrucción.

Despertando esta en lo profundo del abismo

donde agonizaba lentamente de olvido,

pero ahora ha vuelto en una destructiva alucinación.

¡Como extrañaba!, la asfixia del alcohol

con su brutal toque de felicidad toxica

dejando a la desdicha intacta

mientras mis heridas se pudren con el sol…

En mi sangre corre un río ardiente,

penetrando mis venas es como entra

y sale transmutado en acto demente

traducido en palabras es como acaba.

Y… en le ultimo acto

o debería llamarla mi mas grande secreto.

Artifice de mi destrucción

musa obscena de mi desesperación.

¡Te invoco, alma llena de lujuria!

mujer cuyo nombre es una injuria 

parida por mis letras

maldecida por mis palabras.

Invitación abierta a mi perdición 

atracción fatal hacia el abismo

dejando mi grito ahogado en este mutismo 

hastíado en desesperación.

El puente

Una vez mas solo me limito a observar 

esperando minuto a minuto como todo a de acabar.

Descifrando los simbolismo ocultos de la muerte

por que muerta es la nuca forma en que puedo tenerte.

Puedo verte caminando a mi lado,

juntos al borde del abismo,

llevando te mas aya de la vida

en donde nunca termina el día.

Nunca pudiste ver lo que yo veo

pero ahora al menos puedes sentirlo 

y presientes que todo terminara 

pero, aquí es donde todo comenzara.

Por que para muchos es el final

en un gran túnel de oscuridad

te enseñare que aquí acaba la soledad

ya que este es el principio y no el final.

Psalms of extinction

Why do you live in fear?

What do you live for?

Here you could´t find a prayers 

When the world is full of liars.

Look up to the sky 

and start to cry

praying the psalms of extinction

the only way to reach your redemption.

Psalms of extinction

handling perdition 

the only way to be a god

When you enjoy killing them all.

Show them the sad show

All the fear inside their souls,

that is slowly draining there lives

Then the world will be free of lies.

Don´t be afraid to leave

Who needs to feel?

Who wants to know?

When we gone

When everything is done.

Different ways

to change the world.

Different pages

to cry this words.

Don´t try to save something

don´t say anything 

no one could reach these redemption 

it´s impossible our salvation.

Just a single tear

to say goodbye 

Keeping silence 

without fear.

Fear to be alone

fear of not being able to love,

but, We can leave…

don´t be afraid.

Ella

Ella potencializa mi lado mas oscuro, aquellos rincones que quizá nadie o tal vez solo ella conozca. Junto a ella no hago diferencia entre el bien o el mal, todas mis acciones giran al rededor de ella. Es como una droga que me es tan necesaria como respirar.